This chapter is closed

Since I named this blog pregoaubs and I'm no longer pregnant I will no longer post on here.
Ill just have my family one here.
Till baby #2 comes see ya later blog world!

Bedtime, but good day

I need to be running to bed before I have to be up again feeding.
Yep!
I'm back to breastfeeding me baby!
If you have been reading I started out loving it, then got sore, then had raw and bleeding nipples (yeah, what a dream) then I took a 4 day break and was pumping and feeding her formula.
Now, I am feeding with no, or very little pain!!
I don't know why I feel like this is such a accomplishment but for me and her it is!! The moment when I realized today that I was going to be fine breastfeeding I felt this hate lifted. maybe not a hate...but I didn't cringe thinking about her wanted to feed again. I felt more love for my daughter and actually really look forward to our feedings.
After my meltdown monday night I called my mom and while I was on the stairs bawling my eyes out, Joe was holding Brinley feeding her a bottle and trying to take a practice test for his series 7. I just knew I need her help again, so she "oh so kindly" drove right back up to utah the next day (yep, 10 hours!) and she has been helping me out a TON!!!! She has helped me not feel overwhelm.
We have decided with Joe at work from 7am to 9pm until he takes his test for work on July 7 &16th I would go back to California with my mom next week so he could get some good studying down and sleep to pass his test and my mom can still help me so I don't have another meltdown.
If Joe doesn't pass this test his job is in jeopardy, so I want him to have all the focus he needs the next few weeks!
P.s. Have I told you how good of a baby I have!!! I love her to pieces!!!

1st mental breakdown

I'm in the middle of it now trying to decided what to do. I'm having a hard time recovering and breastfeeding. Well I can't do it and my poor dog is sick and I don't think I've changed clothes for days (beside when my friend came to take pictures of brinley on sat.) I feel so bad because she is such a good baby, im just trying to get back to a new normal life.
All of these could be last night was the worst night of sleep or lack of any for that matter.

3 Weeks

Okay, so I didn't give up breastfeeding, I went out and bought a pump to see if I can pump and heal at the same time. So far everything is going good. One of my good friends has been my good to girl answering every question I have. My other best friend, Lauren Spencer came up yesterday to take some newborn pic and family ones. We are very excited for these and so grateful Lauren would do that for us.
Here a sneak peak of the photo shoot.
Right now Brinley is more alert then ever. She gets a bath every night at 10 and only wakes up twice at night (2:30 & 5)
She and champ get along great!
We are so blessed to have here here finally!

2 Weeks

I don't know where the time as gone? I feel like I was just checking into the hospital and here I am at home rocking my 2 week old girl. Life has been amazing, I'm still on a high having her around.
My mom has been here for the past two weeks and has really really really helped me out. From answering simple question to making me take my afternoon naps no matter what. She has been a huge part of my recovery.

Brinley surprised us all and slept 7 hours straight last night! What a treat that was even though I was still waking up to make sure she was breathing!

Surprise 2, I'm back in my old clothes. Still a shock to me, I went on the scale and was only 4 lbs over from my pre-pregnancy weight. I need to find and add the picture of my swollen feet after I gave birth because I'm positive all that fluid weight was stuck in my feet. We are going in now for her 2 week check up and we will see what she weighs!

Breastfeeding

So far I want to record how I've been dealing with that. Each women is so different so I wasn't sure how I would deal with it or my body. You see back in 2004 I graduated from beauty school and decided to get a breast reduction. I've always had larger then life boobs. So I knew that would be a good time. When I was told the risk of not ever being able to breastfeed to not having any problems I was worried but I had so much confidence in my dr that I just felt like it would all work out.
So, I knew this day would be coming for a while now but knowing theirs a 50/50 chance is a bit scary.
When Brinley was born they placed her on my chest and she knew what to do and was looking around for some boob. She was a natural to begin with. Every nurse seemed to comment on it and what a good eater she was. I was so proud and happy that we were bonding. Things seemed to easy for a while. I don't remember exactly when but I started cracking. The pain was not fun. I was also breaking down because I didn't understand how long or much she needed to be fed. Only because with reductions you don't know how many milk ducks they take out and sometimes you have to feed her less but closer together. So I've been trying everything. Also her Dr said because of jaundice and how tiny she got down to 6'5 he asked if we wouldn't mind doing a ounce or two of formula a night.
My mom said she was told to give her babies a bottle once a week from dad so if anything ever happened for a while and I couldn't nurse she would still be okay with a bottled.
So we were fine with giving this a try. Again, I wasn't worried that it would effect her breastfeeding skills. You can get horror stories of babies never going back to breastfeeding. After the first night she was a trooper going back to breastfeeding. She is still doing great at both and has put on the weight the Dr wanted her to (even though Dr usually don't care if babies lose weight in their first few months, ours didn't want brynn to do that.)
Tomorrow we go back in to check her levels and it would be nice to have to give the lights up but we will see. After I see a nurse there who is a Lactation Consultant and will go over everything with me in helping out. I'm glad to hopefully get some relief and start tuffing these babies up.

Blood Clot Story

June 1- blood clots

It was busy after we got up to the recovery room on June 1st, but I was able to let everyone awe over her because I knew I always had to feed her and would get her back in my arms in no time.
My parents, Tay and Court left so we could have the rest of the afternoon and evening as a new little family.
I was just getting settled in and thought I should try my first bathroom break before I took a nap. Now, the first time you must have nurses help you to just make sure everything is good. After all your body just went through a lot delivering a baby. So I paged them and my RN and CNr came in to help. I was instructed to just slowly get to the side of the bed and wait then slowly stand up.
I remember feeling oh so weak! I was sore and needed all their help to stand. We took a min then stood up. My knees never felt so weird and weak. They asked if I were dizzy and I told them I wasn't so I tried taking a step towards my bathroom. Then that's when I felt really dizzy. I felt a huge gush of something come out. They laid me back down and check it out. I was hemorrhaging Just pushing a little on my stomach which was still a huge uterus blood would gush out. They kept doing this and when they decided it wouldn't stop they called my dr up. By then I had lost a lot of blood and. I felt so dizzy from this moment on I closed my eyes and begin to pray. I heard more and more nurses rushing in to help stabilize me. Joe was watching over Brinley until a nurse came it to watch her and Joe came by my side. Holding my hand and rubbing my hair and telling me what a good job I was doing, to hang in their, that the dr was coming. All encouraging phrases. I can't imagin what he must felt, i know my heart was with him blessing that he could handle what was going on around his wife as nurses tilt my bed towards my head so I wouldn't pass out.
I think I was throwing up at some point to which I often do when my body goes into shock. I was shaking from head to toe from the loss of blood. The Dr came in and I don't know what he told everyone to do but it wasn't working so the worst part that I remember was he had to go in. I remember him telling me or Joe she is really going to hate me after this. He had to reach with his hand up into my uterus (after just a few hours of having a baby and also stitches down there) and had to pull blood clots out the size of my fist. He had to push down on my stomach while doing this and I just wanted to die. I remember one point from keeping me from passing out was thinking of our precious new baby girl and how grateful I was that she is here and a part of our family that I thought I'm doing this for her! She is our everything, our forever, our life. They hooked up a few drugs that help make my uterus contract to push out any more blood clots. I could hear less and less nurses in there and more encouraging words around. They order the blood and got the transfusions going quickly. The first bag took about 3-4 hours for it to all go in safely.
Then they did a second pint and I was getting color back (what I was told). I don't remember much after, just that I was really tired and wanted to sleep.

Brinleys birth story June 1, 2012

Brinley's Birth Story

It was Thursday May 31, 2012 and I was dealing with my hemorrhoids so I don't know if that took my mind off of my pregnancy.
Anyways I was waiting for Joe to come home from work, we had dinner then he went back to his studying at the kitchen table while I got ready for bed. I remember laying in bed and feeling a little bit of fluid, just enough to make me get out of bed and go to the bathroom. It happened a few more times before I told Joe, "I think my water might be leaking?" I never knew that your water could slowly leak until we went to our all day labor and delivery class just a few weeks ago. So, we disscuse this for a min and decided to call my mom and see what she thought. She wasn't sure but said if we went in they could check the fluid and let us know if that is what is leaking or if I'm just not good at holding in my pee. So we started getting things together. I had a bag already packed for Brinley and me but Joe didn't know if he should put on jeans or sweats.
I decided to wear a huge pad to see if I could tell anymore. We called my neighbor who was going to watch champ and decided to just let champ sleep at our place and she would get him in the morning.
Our drive was quick to the hospital and a bit quiet. When we got there we went straight to labor and delivery to check in. Right away the told is all the rooms were full but some were still getting clean so it would be a min. A mature nurse was standing behind the receptionist and when I told them I was sure if my water was leaking or what she gave me a eye roll and asked if it was my first. I informed her it was and that's why I wasn't sure.
They had me come over to the nurses station to start answering question they normally do in the room. By this time the watery stuff had soak thru the pad and thru my pants and as I got up to follow her to a room I felt a rush of water go down my legs. We both laugh as I told joe to get our bags in the car because we are staying to have a baby. He ended up following to the room with all our excitement.
They had to get my IV started right away because I tested positive for strep B. Then they checked to see if I was dilated and told me I was maybe a finger tip, not even a 1. I thought wow, I'm going to probably have a long labor.
They told us to get some sleep and just relax. We were so excited we started calling family members. My parents pack up and jumped in the car about mid-night and drove all night!
Around 1:25 my dinner came up and they gave me zofran.
I started feeling the contractions right when joe feel asleep.
It was about a 4-5 on my pain scale which wasn't bad just not anything I could sleep thru. I started have some that would reach the top on the contraction chart they had me hooked up to. My nurse informed me I could get my epidural whenever I wanted. So I told myself I would wait until I had 3 more really bad constrations. So at 3:44am I requested the magic drug. The bummer was the dr just went in for an emergency c section and I would have to wait 30-45 mins to have the epidural. I was so happy I asked for it early on rather then right when I was in dying pain. I didn't know if I was even dilated.
At 4:30am the dr came in to give the epidural, he was so nice and so fast. He explained everything and I thought the whole thing was painless for me, just a bee sting here and there. So with no pain and wide awake Joe and I popped in a DVD of FRIENDS. After two episodes we were tired and decided to get any sleep we could. I woke up at 7:22 and nurse Kim ( one of the Best!) came in to check me. So sad to say I was only dilated to a 3 1/2 and still 90% effaced. She said my body is doing everything good and at a good rate so I wouldn't need pitocium.
I had my catheter in and feeling great, not even feel pregnant at all or in labor. Just having a good good time.
How was excited to check out the cafeteria and get some breakfast. While he was gone Kim checked me again and this time I was a 7!!
By this time I was progressing quickly. At 9am I was 9cm dilated and 10am I was a 10! I felt like once I hit 9 they tried to slow things down a bit because we had not reached my dr yet.
30 mins later we found out my Dr was at Zion's national park! Such a bummer but it was going to be okay. I had the on call dr, Dr. Klemperer.
The nurse had to get me all ready before the Dr came in so we started pushing. She asked Joe if he was interested in helping and holding my leg up and we both knew that would never happen, so they had to call in another nurse. We did 3 counts to 10 for some time, I think it was 30-45 mins but it seemed a lot shorter to me. Joe was great at helping me breath and counted for me. The nurses were great and funny. One got paged on her walkie talkie and without thinking responded " I can't come now, I'm pushing" we were laughing because she felt my pain like it was her own. Of course I still wasn't feeling any pain or discomfort.
Once I was ready the Dr came in and had me push for 10-20 mins, that was the craziest feeling I can not explain.
At 11:27am Brinley was out and in my arms. With lots of dark hair, beautiful lips and a cute button nose. Joe got to cut the cord and be the first to hold her after I had skin to skin and breastfed her.
My parents had made it up after driving all night and came at the perfect time when they were just taking me up to my room where I would stay for 3 days.
Taylor and Courtney also came in with my parents and brought some cute stuff animals for her. It was a wonderful delivery for me and everyone there was such a big help!

Hours before my water broke...

 39 Weeks & 5 days

May 31, 2012
Just a few hours before Joe came home from work I saw a cute picture on pinterest that I wanted to add to my bump collection. So I got things ready and took some shots. Little did I know my water would break in just a few hours. So here's to the end of my pregnancy! We had our ups and downs and for the most part you were so good to me. I had a good lasting impression so hopefully I can do this again!

Bum update

I know you've been praying for me because I feel like I'm getting better. I'm still in pain, but the Tylenol codeine is helping with that. I haven't had a break down today so that good. And even though I really shouldn't I'm thinking about getting up to go pick up some milk. We will see. For now champ and I, well I am very happy just laying in bed and soaking my bum in warm water. I have googled everything about blot clot hemorrhoids and home remedies and the warm bath is my favorite. I think after an hour last night in there I thought it went way completely, but I was wrong. Well, as long as I can hold off labor for just a few more days I will be thrilled! Yes even at 2 days before my due date I'm asking for prayers that I don't go into labor just yet. Good news is I have the urge to eat again, yum an orange and sandwich sounds good.
Xo

Blood clot hemorrhoids - TMI

Just in case you were wondering, but if not this gives me something to do to not think about pain. I swear going through this is going to make child birth seem to easy! I hope.
I called around and talked to my obgyn nurse and she recommend I see a rectal surgeon. She was able to call his office and get me in today at 1:30. The morning seemed like forever but I was so excited I was going. I read up on hemrrohiods and came to my own conclusion I must have blood clots in them. Many people say they can cut it open to release the clot. So I went in to see him and sure enough they had turn into blood clots. I don't remember much after that but him giving me two choice. Cut them open there or letting then be. He said something about me being so close to deliver that he wouldn't recommend cutting them because 1. It can start labor and have a worst time pushing. I was again in so much pain that I could think straight. I told him to do what he thought was best. I must have blanked out because the next thing I remember is the nurse telling me to get dress again and meet him in his office. I was a little confused because I wanted any relief by now. When I went in he gave me a prescription for Tylenol with codeine and told me once he cut the hemrrohiods on a pregnant lady and she went into labor that night and had a harder recovery so even though I could still be in pain for another day or two we are hoping to hold off labor until then. He was the nicest oldest man and I trust him completely but man it's killing me still. Pray for me that they go away really fast.

Last week is the hardest

So it hasn't gotten as easier since yesterday so I called my dr and talked with the nurse. She decided I go see a rectal surgeon today!
Although I'm so worried that we will have to do a minor surgery today and I go into labor within days making labor or recovery much harder. But I have gotten to the point of I would rather be able to move from my bed without feeling like I want to die.

Week 39 Dr. Appt:
I'm still showing no signs of labor, which is okay and normal. My dr likes to set up a stress test 3 days after your due date just to make sure the baby isn't under stress. We also talked about going over and being induced. He said the earliest he will schedule that is a week after my due date so by June 9th we should be very close having our little girl!

So, I'm off to see my rectal dr. And if I wasn't in so much pain I would not be this happy!!!!!!!!!

Due dates

What's in it for a due date? Nothing. I wish I never had one. Everything been going sooo good up until 39 weeks and 1 day. I felt like I got hit by a ton of bricks. Most of this, no actually all of this feeling has to do with my little hemorrhoid friends. I've had them before but this is just unbearable! I lay on my side and feel like I don't want to move an inch. I take baths, I ice it, use meds, I've even had some relief when I get so frustrated and shove it back up where it belongs, but that only last a few steps. Ugh now the oh so happy Aubrey who wants to wait until her due date or after for this little one to come wants nothing more to go into labor right now because of some hemorrhoids . So now my due date is staring me in the face and todays the day phone calls have started. No people I haven't had this baby and guess what I haven't shown ANY signs of labor, which was fine by me until I got hemorrhoids.
So other then my new friends I'm doing very well. My body even lost some weight this week. I swear I'm in awe oh how easy the weight was to put on my mission but how I'm not now. Not to worry joe and I were both chubby babies and a chubby baby I want!!! So here's to lying in bed.

39 Weeks

With my due date in one week I'm on watch now that she could come anytime, although I am preparing myself to wake up next Sunday still pregnant. This past week sleep has really had it's own schedule. I guess my body is really preparing myself for motherhood already. I've also kicked up the sweets a little to much and the walking champ less and less. She is constantly moving and makes it really hard when she hang out around my ribs ( I'm guessing because of that pain she hasn't dropped yet). Last week my Dr. checked me once again and like normal I've had no progress of going into labor.
I've done so much more in the nursery now and will have to get pictures up soon and hopefully get all the DIY links up too. We have our bags packed and will be ready whenever she comes.
On Saturday we took a tour of the hospital and although it was quick it was nice to see where we will be at.

Baby on Board- Baby Shower

My trip down to California for the baby shower has come and gone so quickly! It was nice having it so close to my due date to keep me focus on that goal but now I need to get these Thank you cards out before she comes!!

Here's a recap of the fun night!

Hostess with the most-est: Meredith Duffy, She had the cutest Hawaiian/ Surfing theme with so many family and friends that helped out to make everything perfect!

 My aunt, Sister, me and Mom

My mom, Grandma, and aunt

 My Sister and her friend 

 Megan and Cove

Pam and daughter Karley, Jess and mom, Adrianna, and my Mother in Law Melanie and Sister in law Shannon.

No one can resist going to a baby shower for a little girl and not want to bring a dress or something pink! Beware, Joe is afraid Brinley already has more clothes then us combined!

 Her first pair of rainbows from my mom, and below the quilt my mom made for her.

 I thought it was so cute that my cousin, Jacqueline and Grandma (who is also Jacqueline) got the same bath tub. They are so cute!! Here Jacqueline with Grandma Jackie, and Aunt Pam.

 My mom's awesome support group and my 2nd mom's. 

Linda, Donna, Carrie, Christel, Caren

 Pam and Lindsey

 My wonderful Cousin and Aunts that all came so far on a weekday to support us!!! They are awesome
Laci, Emileah, Aunt Kathi, Shalee, Aunt Vicki, Lisa

 Melanie, April, Merdith, Patti and sweet baby Anisley

 Great friends that came out, Ashleigh and Andrea and cute baby Mia

 Joe's fabulous cousin bakes cakes and treats in Orange County and I was so thrilled when she was able to make the baby shower cake! It was certainty a hit!!!

My awesome friends, Elise and Robin!

Meredith also put together  a cute slide show of Joe and I and my journey with my baby bump stage. It was so sweet and thoughtful.  I had a great time and I don't know why I was so scared to go to my own baby shower. 

Add are some other great gifts we have gotten:
My Grandma Gloria got us our car seat that goes with our Britax B-Ready stroller

Now just have to pack our hospital bags and I think we are all ready and set for her to come!
 

38 Weeks and I'm turning around

I only say I'm 38 weeks and turning around because I thought it would be a good idea to take some birthing classes. Well, with just a few weeks left we only found 1 that fit our schedule before she came and it was an all day class that was going to cover everything. We could have easily skipped the first half...why do I need to see 2 women have their babies natural in all their pain and glory? and spare me the crowning shot...and placenta. I thought Joe was going to throw up right there! plus, we were dying when you see how old this video was. I'm sure it's older then me! oh well, I guess it was good to do once. We did enjoy the second part of the day, including the video of the happy lady with her epidural and the great message I got from Joe while I sat on a birthing ball practicing my breathing. I was so interested in the video of the epidural because I always hear it was this huge needle and yada yada yada...and just until recently I didn't know they put a catheter in and it kept the meds going! Well, after watching it Joe and I both agree my nightly shots in the butt during the first trimester with progesterone is just the same, if not worst. No longer does getting an epidural scare me...I'm ready for the good stuff.

They now say my uterus is the size of a watermelon! really? I watermelon! wow. For now I try to get in bed around 10:30 and rest while she moves around and when she starts sleeping I try to also. Then I'm usually up again at 4:30 and depends on the day if I'm up for 30 mins or 3 hours before I get some more sleep.
Yesterday I really caught up on my sleep and Champ and I practically stayed in bed until 5pm having cat naps. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to sleep when she comes and take her naps, but I'm sure now I'll be so tired that I'll be napping too!

What to expect when your expecting
After a long day in class I insisted that we go out to see this movie to have some comedy in this serious pregnant learning day. The movie was packed and yes a lot of prego ladies. It was an okay movie. I liked it, but a little different then I expected I guess, if you think you would want to see it go..it will be good. It had some humor and some tears. I loved that every women shared a different side of pregnancy. Just like every women carries her baby different in her body we all have different ways our body will deal with pregnancy.

I can now understand why many women at the end of pregnancy are sooo ready to be done and wish upon everything that their baby will come early or even on time. While I'm so excited to meet our baby girl most of the time I love placing my hands over my belly and just feeling her move around. I love seeing my pregnant belly. I love when Joe and I talk to her. I love her safe inside me. What scares me even more that we don't know when or if this will happen again so I'm trying to soak up every bit of this pregnancy and enjoy every ache and pain and happiness that this baby girl has brought to our life! I never thought I would get to have this day and sometimes I don't want it to end because I'm afraid this could be it. We got lucky once with treatment but you never know what will happen next. So I just wanted to write down my feelings of how lucky and blessed I feel and pray for all that are still on that journey to get to pregnancy. It's a hard long road but you never have to do it alone!

37 Weeks and counting...

This past week I got to go down to California for my Baby Shower and what a crazy fun week I had. Now, here I am at 37 weeks and feeling like a huge pregnant lady. This must be what it is like when you get old, your mind still thinks you can sit up with no problem until you get half way and fall back down. Even though I've stayed pretty active my body has been able to move around a lot easier before.
I'm starting to feel braxton hicks which just help my body prepare for labor. I usually get them walking champ or at target and I have to breath and walk a lot slower until it passes. I'm feeling more pressure down there even though my Dr said yesterday I'm not dilated at all her head is still pressing right at my cervix.
Again I had the joy of my Dr checking to see if I was dilated at all and it took what seemed like forever for me and lots of pain because of my good old high maintenance cervix that no one can find. I'm sure this had something to do with my infertility.
Now that I'm home from California I realized the next thing is getting ready to have a baby and "nest". Let's be honest...I'm always a nester, I love to sew, and do projects and this is nothing new. This week I am so excited to make a ton of crib sheets  though from my favorite fabric that my mom used to make a quilt for me. With just 3 or 4 weeks left I have made a list of things that I can do to keep myself busy, and to be honest...with hot weather here and my 80 year old body...it takes me twice as long to do something so I'm glad I have some time.
I was tested positive for strep B (which has nothing to do with strep throat), it's an infection down there that can make my baby sick if she gets it during the birthing. Nothing scary about it, they just have to know to start me on an IV of antibiotics when I go into labor and keep it going every 4 hours. They know what they are doing so I'm not worried, plus this is common with 1 out of 5 pregnancies. 

36 Weeks

This little girl is growing!!! We are doing so good this week.  I'm feeling great and right now the only battle I'm facing is iron. My Dr. have told me to up my iron because I don't have enough, but when I do I am no longer regular in the bathroom area, then I get little friends that I don't want and my Dr has told me I have to hope they go away after delivery. ugh! but hey, if that's all I'm dealing with right now I am one happy pregnant lady! Who knows how the next few months are going to treat me. This week I got to go down to California for my baby shower and thanks to my husband and mom taking me half way so I could be watched. At the end of this week I'll be considered full term!

35 week Dr check up

35 weeks already and I had a great Dr. Appt. first I want to say that I don't know how I did it but I have stayed within my wanted healthy weight gain so far! This has really surprise me because I easily put on 20lbs on my mission.i might have to thank my first born, mr champ for keep begging me to go on walks/hikes. Anyways, good start on the appt. then he looked at my high ultrasound results and said it's(my placenta) 3inches from cervix so I'm good to have a vaginal delivery. He did my strep B test then checked to see if I was even open. Nothing yet, which is good but he could feel the head or her head pressure. Yep, she is head down and ready and after 20mins of walking I feel like she's giving me the waddle. Oh ya I waddle! I love it, I love every min of being pregnant and while I am more then excited to have her here I'm trying to take in just her and mine last days together where no one can take her from me! I'm sooooo bless to have this miracle come into our life.

Remembering the mid-night hiccups

Lately it's been so on or off with sleep. I've heard it before but my body is preparing me for my little girls wake up calls in the middle of the night. Some nights I sleep just fine and even sleep in and others I'm up for 2-4 am wide wake with her have hiccups or just to excited feeling her move around. I have really felt a huge difference in this past month being pregnant. The first part was hard because I was cautious with everything and feeling uncomfortable, but I'm now feeling much better having a huge belly in my way. It's 4:35am and she had the hiccups for a few minutes then she started moving around and I think she's ready to let us both go back to sleep. I'll update tomorrow about the good dr. Visit I had the other day, let's just say the placenta needs to be so far from the cervix for a vaginal birth and my dr said he feels comfortable enough to go ahead with that. He doesn't seem to think it should be a problem anymore! Goodnight my friends. Just a few more weeks or do and I'll be up feeding my girl!

35 Weeks

Another week has come and gone and I'm getting that feeling that I should really finish this nursery we have for her, because we know their isn't one extra inch in our room for her.
Everything is coming together, it just happens to be that I picked projects to do for her room that take a lot of time, or at least when you have a huge basketball in your way and can't move much. I would post up pictures of the projects coming along but that would mean I have to take pictures up load them and move around more then I want right now. haha
I'll be going to my Dr. on Tuesday and will know his feelings on C-section or not.
I got ready for the day early this week and thought I would take a picture because I wasn't sure the next time would be, but then I took another one after church today so here are two 35 week pictures...enjoy!

Last week was infertility awareness week and I want to blog about that sometime soon, and my feelings on this pregnancy coming to a close. Who knows if and when we will be able to have another....so I'm cherishing every moment I have with this crazy monkey inside me!

what comes around goes around...

It's almost noon and I've changed my outfit 4 times now (something I did often before I turned 5) and I don't have anywhere to go today...I just need to  be comfortable!
I'm trying to hold out till 35 weeks to get my moo-moo that I've always needed!
or go back to my old habits

no shorts!

Big as a Balloon 34 Weeks

Did I just double my bump size?
I'd say so....
Here I am at 34.2 Weeks and feeling like I'm at that watermelon stage!

So every morning, yes every morning I go to my iphone and look at my pregnancy apps that tell me little things about my pregnancy for that day. Sometimes it's way off warning me about morning sickness (haven't thrown up once) and sometimes it's more informative.

Today was a very informative day and ease my concern for my double the size belly:

"Lately you've been so bloated that you fell like you're ready to pop. This is most likely caused by your slower metabolism, which has lessened to allow baby to gather up all of those much-needed nutrients through your blood stream after each meal...."

I thought Awesome, fatten up Brinley!

Here's the apps I like to check and get a daily update as well as a weekly!

What to Expect (Pregnancy)

My Pregnancy (Baby center)

Pregnancy (sprout)

Baby Bump

Well just 2 weeks until my baby shower, so maybe I should register? 

I've been doing some research on what I think we really only need now, but if you have any must haves please leave a comment. 

Happy Week everyone

New Dr.

I have know for a while now that I would have to find a new Dr. in Utah and very late in my pregnancy. We were up here a few weeks before my insurance with my husbands new work would start so I was a bit concern then. I had a ward friend in CA who delivered her first baby up here and really liked him as a Dr.  She was told by a labor and delivery nurse that he was great! So I took her advise and made an appt to see him. Just as I hoped for he is everything you want for a L&D Dr.  One of the greatest features is the L&D hospital is just a few floors down from his office! Yes, he was late for my appt. because he was delivering a baby!!
We went over everything and talked about my lack of iron and low lying placenta. So he went ahead to order a ultrasound that will measure everything and exactly how close the placenta is to the cervix. It has never been covering and hasn't caused any bleeding (thank you!) but my previous Dr. has said if it's within an inch I will have a C-section.

Two days later-
My mom was visiting and came with me to the appt. It was a full bladder kind of appt. The ultrasound tech lady was so nice. She was able to get all the measurements she needed while chatting with my delightful mother who was a proud grandma to be. I can't remember what came first but I remember she measured Brinley's head and I voiced that I was concern because my husband and all his brothers had big heads as babies. Luckly, she said she was below average (nothing to be concerned about). She seemed happy that the placenta wasn't covering, but I already knew that. She measured 3cm, which coverts to 1.18 inches....so I don't know where that leaves me! I guess I'll have to wait and see what my Dr thinks about that.  The best part was pictures again!!! I have soooo many pictures and I love it! Here's the newest:

Look at those sweet lips!

Look at her foot reaching all the way up to her forehead! What a gymnast!

I'm sooo in love! 

Her room is really coming together too and I'll take a picture this week before we get the crib up. 

I'm really getting uncomfortable now, especially after our hikes, whooa takes everything out of me but I do it for Champ!

33 Weeks

Wow, Where is the time going? I feel like I just woke up and I'm over 30 weeks. This is great! I'm learning new moves to get my shoes on and feeling out of breath coming up the stairs, but lets be honest, can you really gain 20lbs and not have to learn new tricks? Baby Girl seems to be doing great because of all her moving around, but we will see again after today Dr's appt. I should know soon of a birth plan.
Here we are after church...

It's funny because I looked back at all my pictures and can't believe how big I thought I was and I was barely showing!!! I think we all go through that, but it's so funny to see it almost week by week. Now that I just stay at home and work on projects getting ready for the day has really gone down hill...and I expect this to continue when I don't have time when taking care of a baby. At least I still have my walks/hikes with Champ. I'm cutting it down to 3 times a week so I don't die. I really move slow these days.

These are a few of my favorite things...

I'm not done with this pregnancy thing, but here are a few things I haven't been able to live without..


1. Before I even needed new jean's my mom spoiled me with these great Gap always skinny Jeans . They have been my favorite since I got them. They will last you your whole pregnancy too and you'll feel a bit more stylish then you would in anything else.

2. My aunt introduced me to this product long before I was pregnant. It makes your legs look amazing in the summer. As soon as I got pregnant I would lather this on my belly after showers and I have never ever dealt with itchy skin.  It truly holds in all the moisture it can and I feel like it's done my growing belly well! I love the gel factor too!

3. I heard I started getting bad heartburn early on. I kept a bag of tums in my purse everywhere! Just a month ago we were apartment hunting and in one of the offices they had samples of new tums that are like breath mints. I took some and were addicted. So much better then any other tums and it was great to carry around in the purse! I swear by these!

4. I have a hard time drinking enough water, but when I fill up my camlebak bottle...I seem to drink twice as much during the day. So, invest in a good water bottle you'll love and drink up!!!

5. My good friend Ashlee told me before Christmas time to get the book Baby Bargins to learn how to 1. save money and 2. figure out what you really need to buy for your baby and when! They also have a great website that will give you information if things are recalled and other great tips. I was hooked reading this book on Christmas day and every time I pick it up I soak up it all!!! get the book on amazon for next to nothing!

Growing Pains

Someone PLEASE tell Brynn to starting growing outward and not upward.....my ribs are going to be bruised for the rest of my life. 

31 Weeks

It was moving week and boy, being 30 weeks pregnant and moving really takes a toll on your body and mind!

We drove up to Utah in 2 day and I felt fine during the drive. We made a stop every 2 hours and walked around which was good. After we got here it was non-stop apartment hunting, in and out of the car, and up and down stairs. I was so pooped!

After a few days of that we found a place in Salt Lake City, UT and Joe flew home to pack up the moving truck while I thought I was going to have a very easy relaxing week with my mom in Midway, Ut at our Quilting retreat. 

Turns out I did just a little bit of this....

 That belly really helps me float!

31 Weeks in all my swimming glory!

This is where I was most of the time! Sewing my brains out. I even stayed up until 2am on the last night to finish a sweet quilt I made for Brynn's Blessing day. I love it and glad I finished it there with expert quilters (Patti Peterson!)

So I haven't talked much about my last trimester but I want you know I feel every bit pregnant now...to the constant heart burn, to walking like a penguin! My belly gets all the attention, as it should! I'm just trying to get everything settled with getting a new ob/gyn here and finally getting her room in order! Such a tiny little person has so much stuff!! 

Here's to just a few more months before we have a little life we are looking after.

29 Weeks

I decided if I didn't take a baby bump shot tonight I wasn't going to get one this week...so with PJ's on and all...I showed it off to the camera night time style. 

This week I'm starting to feel that being 5"3 and having a short torso isn't going to be fun. I'm feeling Brynn's legs or arms or something always around my ribs, and if I sit to long I feel like she is reaching my boobs! HA! 

I am loving dressing this bump but I have a feeling that sometime soon that I won't find anything in my closet to cover it. I'm still getting some good heartburn and that's about it. 

I'm really looking forward to turning 30 weeks this Saturday!!! Moving up to Utah and get going on Brinley's room....2 months of unemployed and only nesting!! whoo hoo!!!

I get to see Brinley again on Tuesday as my Dr. wants to see me one more time before we move and have to find another Dr. He also wants to go over my glucose test (which came back great) and talk about my low iron. I know have to take 2 iron pills a day with 2 fibercon pills to help the waste keep moving :) I'll ask him to take home some pictures if I can of her. I figure she'll be here before we know it though so either way.

Also, The moment I have been waiting for since I found out I was pregnant was last week....Ellen's Mother's Day show opened her application processes. Starting last week you could apply to get picked to be on her Mother's Day show (which if you have seen before you know what I'm talking about...if not...it's pretty much christmas times 10 for you and your baby). This takes place on May 10th and I'm hoping I get a call back to be invited!!! fingers cross to all my dear prego friends out there that are trying with me!!!  Either way, I have everything I ever wanted and can not wait to start our next chapter in our life. With the move right around the corner we have been doing some furniture projects BIG time...my favorite moment was when I had to run into Home Depot to pick up more spray paint for Joe and I felt like I was a lady walking around with a pregnant belly and alcohol. haha...spray paint and pregnant ladies do not or should not mix. 

Goodnight!