Breastfeeding

So far I want to record how I've been dealing with that. Each women is so different so I wasn't sure how I would deal with it or my body. You see back in 2004 I graduated from beauty school and decided to get a breast reduction. I've always had larger then life boobs. So I knew that would be a good time. When I was told the risk of not ever being able to breastfeed to not having any problems I was worried but I had so much confidence in my dr that I just felt like it would all work out.
So, I knew this day would be coming for a while now but knowing theirs a 50/50 chance is a bit scary.
When Brinley was born they placed her on my chest and she knew what to do and was looking around for some boob. She was a natural to begin with. Every nurse seemed to comment on it and what a good eater she was. I was so proud and happy that we were bonding. Things seemed to easy for a while. I don't remember exactly when but I started cracking. The pain was not fun. I was also breaking down because I didn't understand how long or much she needed to be fed. Only because with reductions you don't know how many milk ducks they take out and sometimes you have to feed her less but closer together. So I've been trying everything. Also her Dr said because of jaundice and how tiny she got down to 6'5 he asked if we wouldn't mind doing a ounce or two of formula a night.
My mom said she was told to give her babies a bottle once a week from dad so if anything ever happened for a while and I couldn't nurse she would still be okay with a bottled.
So we were fine with giving this a try. Again, I wasn't worried that it would effect her breastfeeding skills. You can get horror stories of babies never going back to breastfeeding. After the first night she was a trooper going back to breastfeeding. She is still doing great at both and has put on the weight the Dr wanted her to (even though Dr usually don't care if babies lose weight in their first few months, ours didn't want brynn to do that.)
Tomorrow we go back in to check her levels and it would be nice to have to give the lights up but we will see. After I see a nurse there who is a Lactation Consultant and will go over everything with me in helping out. I'm glad to hopefully get some relief and start tuffing these babies up.